Did they reject me because I was angry, or did I become angry because I was rejected? Which one makes more sense...
I would think the fact that you seem to be emotionally disturbed would be the reason for both the rejection and the anger.
But you can understand that when you want to love someone and they tell you that you are not allowed, it creates anger...
if you are emotionally disturbed, or a misogynist with a warped sense of entitlement maybe.
Seriously, look at your reasoning here, and the language you are using. You can love whoever the hell you want, you don't have to have someone "allow" you to do that - but that doesn't mean that you have the right to be with or fuck whoever you want.
Primitivists are weird.
Did they reject me because I was angry, or did I become angry because I was rejected? Which one makes more sense... Read Bukowski's and Houllebeqcs books and you will see what happens to men when they are systematically rejected for not being sexually 'good enough'... I do not condone rape, in fact I consider it the most atrocious act of mankind; But you can understand that when you want to love someone and they tell you that you are not allowed, it creates anger...
But this is besides the point. Was Buk an anarchist? He felt secure with a job, but was this under duress... Did he in fact dream of a world where he could write and be free without pressure to be a slave?